Baby steps, I have to start somewhere
December 11, 2025
I don’t know who needs to hear it, but this time of year tends to hit hardest. The days are usually on the gray side, making the day feel colder and more alone. Seasonal depression, situational depression, or just the blahs, it takes its toll this time of year and I am left feeling shut down. Or alternating between emotionless to periods of high anxiety. There has been a lot that has happened this year, but that’s a story for another day.I have yet to start putting up our Christmas decorations, and it’s already Dec. 11. My husband says we don’t have to, but I know I do. It’s what is expected. We have the family get together at our house, and it ends up making me happy in the end. Mom always loved Christmas and all the decorations that came with it. So she when she passed, it became a personal expectation.
The day started off with the mission to find the Spiderman Lego figure my great nephew lost / left here on Thanksgiving. We had already swept under the furniture and checked the areas where the maybe 1 and 1/2 inch figure could hide. So, I cleaned out the toy bench. Then I became sidetracked organizing it; at least till the Grandkids open that lid again. The Spiderman was found in the bottom of the toy chest, whew, crisis averted. During my search, random game pieces found the proper box, dominos were organized in their tin box, soft darts stashed with the proper dart gun, and the colorful bird puzzle reassembled and ready to be torn apart again. The lid now closes without protest, and the fuzz balls have been vacuumed from the corners. Definitely a feeling of accomplishment achieved.
I have been on a bit of an organizing kick the past few months. Trying to get the house uncluttered and organized in preparation for, God forbid, my unexpected death. I know, that sounds crazy, but let’s be honest, my Mom died at my age of a massive heart attack around 24 years ago. So, till I get through this birthday year, my motto is “prepare of the worst” and be thrilled it it doesn’t play out that way.
So, the cabinets still need reorganizing in the kitchen, my bedroom is a nightmare I can’t face on a gray day like today, and there are at least 50 things I can think of that need done before my demise. The goal is to accomplish one task at least every few days, so, here we go.
Still working through your posts. I dunno if this one was difficult or felt good to write, but it for sure put things in perspective. One day, one step, one task at a time, EC :)
ReplyDeleteIt was a bit difficult, but also cathartic in the telling.
DeletePS: We have a fake evergreen. It's a "pencil" tree. Stays up year round, but does wear its Christmas clothes during the holidays. We love it! :)
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